I’m remembering back to when I was around three years old. This is when I first discovered something different within my mind.It happened all of a sudden, one night when I first fell asleep, with my eyes closed, I saw this movie playing in my head, I saw my closet door, it was closed and I heard voices calling me from within. I got up out of bed and opened the closet door, immediately fright shivered from the top of my head to the bottom of my toes. I saw many, many very scary faces, all yelling and screaming, these faces looked like clown faces with fanged teeth. As I turned around to run, my eyes opened, as I laid in bed, I looked at the closet door, it was closed. At that moment confusion set in, because I did not remember if I closed the closet door or remember jumping back into bed.
The rest of the night I laid in bed with the blanket over my head and my back facing the closet door. Every time I tried to close my eyes to sleep, I saw those faces yelling and screaming. I would open my eyes, turn around, look at the closet door, and it would be closed. I laid there in bed, frightened all night, wondering how I would exit my room, because I had to go past the closet door, but yet, I was creatively thinking of ways to exit my room.
When it was sunlight, I came to the conclusion, run as fast as I can, and if anything was to happen I will deal with it then, because I had many plans in my mind for many scenarios. I ran and woke up my mom.
My mom told me I was dreaming, that it was not real, she took me to the closet door and opened it, and showed me there was nothing to be afraid of. My mom told me, to tell myself, ‘ I only want to dream nice dreams not scary dreams’ she told me to say this 3 times every night, and no more scary dreams, they will be gone forever.
Later that night when I went to bed, as soon as I closed my eyes, there they were, the faces. I closed my eyes as tight as I could and from deep down within me, I felt, if I told myself over and over again No More Dreams, No more dreams, No more dreams, do not dream, no more dreams, no.. more dreams, do.. not.. dream, no… more… dreams… no…._______.
This reoccurred for 3 nights, and now here I am 50 years old, and still have not dreamed.
True story only the Honest Truth will be spoken here.
I have learned over the years, everyone dreams at some time or another, but for the few who do not remember their dreams, simply means we have no anxieties.
Believe it or not at the young age of three years old I was first discovering the power of my mind.
As I got older I could block out pain and heal myself.
I will share with you more of my life lessons
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Dale Leo
it sounds like you have some unusual first memories,to say the least.however i do know someone who remembers being born! he actually remembers what it felt like. i do not think we will ever find someone who remembers being conceived,though. there is just no stuff there at that time to retain anything.i myself,do not have any memories before 2.5yrs old.thats because i did not arrive here untill then. do not think it so strange.there are more than a few who have arrived on this planet over its exsistence that most would consider very strange indeed.however,i can only rrecount MY experience of the matter……..blackness…….followed quickly by ….motion……turning to gray…..followed quickly by….voices….that i would soon discover to be parents.they looked familiar thru these eyes…….more motion…….because what i was seeing the parents thru was bounceing up and down in a crib…….it felt GOOD!…….as mother went by….she said to stop bounceing……but it felt so good!…….noticed that father was looking for something….but did not find it…….at that time realized that what was bounceing was about to go over the edge of the crib…….heard two small voices……one said hold on with both hands,i understood that this would simply flip over and be standing up on floor……however,before i could fully grasp what i had just received……the other voice said to let go of the crib railing……when that one spoke,an understanding of two broken arms would be the result if i held on…….the last voice overrode the first one and this let go of the railing…….faint recollection of putting out hands to break fall….but no rememberance of feeling the floor…….next recollection is standing up and mother asking if i was alright…….i don’t know if i replyed or not,because this ‘thing’ came whooshing up from below,i remember i just started to think……why am i crying……when i was completely engulfed by it…….parents when out thru the door the crib was next to and went thru the outside door to out in back……i had just started to wonder how i was going to follow them…when all of a sudden i was moveing!……i said to myself….hey! i can walk!……so as i went out thru the doors….the experience that i had just had was buried in forgetfulness untill i after i had started to follow THE WAY…….the my mother told me she had turned and saw me bounce out of the crib and land on the floor head first!!thats when she asked me if i was alright.she said she was worried,but i did not seem to be hurt,so we all just kinda went on our way. to this very day i am STILL going on my way. do not think this to be strange(the going on YOUR way part)for everyone on this planet is doing just that.however,there are so many ways,and the planet is so small,that sometimes we all kinda get tangled up in various ways.BUT there are those few that are lead to follow the ways that are laid out for a specific reason,in a specific way,that will end in a specific conclusion. do NOT fret if you think you are not one of those few! all ways are necessary to bring out the conclusion of the matter that was started in THE BEGINNING.nothing will be left out,so do the best you can do,with what you have been given,knowing that it does have much value. and with that,i will bid you ado for now.ta-ta leon