I was literally @ the end of my rope (in life)

I was literally @ the end of my rope (in life).  Drugs, still living @ home, no woman to love, no job..  What I choose to do in life fell through the floor, my precious music.  I was just praying for death.  I even turned to the bible in hopes of getting help from god.  I was suicidal.  I felt I had no way out.  I was trapped.  I felt embarrassed.  I felt like I was a bad example for the young generation of my family.  I received a letter from Neothink 1 day.  I read it, and requested the booklet.  When I got it, I read it, even found it interesting.  However, I was to broke to order the books.  In the booklet though, it said 1 of a few things good would happen after reading it.  And it did..  I gave up getting high.  It took 11 years to finally give that up.  I moved away from home.  I moved to MN. from MI. to attend college.  It was the best thing for me @ that time.  Since leaving home, my life has been on an upward swing with few set backs.  I  graduated with well over a 3.0 GPA from college.  My sex life came to life, finally.  I’m not rich by any stretch, but, I’m happy.  Its rich people who aren’t happy.  Happiness can’t be bought.  Its achieved.  I feel I’ve won..  I won back a part of me.  Still enjoying life!!  Planning on getting married and starting a family in a year.  My music has picked up once again.  I’m still hoping I get that big break 1 day.  I did finally order all 3 books too.  Read them all.  Loved The last of the 3 books!  My life now, is like..  Night and day as to how it had become with drugs and my music.  I’m happy now, like when I was in my childhood, playing in my grandmother’s yard with my cousins.  My mind has gotten stronger in what’s going on in the world also.  I owe being sure about reality, to Neothink.  I dread the thought of never getting those books.  What I absorbed, no one can take from me.  No one can feed me their BS and I find myself caught up in it.

I’m to sure about reality.