FIRST I WOULD LIKE TO THANK YOU

FIRST I WOULD LIKE TO THANK YOU FROM MY INNER-SELF FOR THIS OPPORTUNITY THAT I HAVE BEEN SEARCHING SINCE I WAS 10 YEARS OLD.
I AM A 63 YEARS OLD HISPANIC WOMAN, FROM CUBA, WHO ARRIVED TO USA AS A POLITICAL EXILE IN 1960 WITH MY PARENTS.

BUT I WOULD LIKE TO START MY BRIEF JOURNEY, FROM AGE 10 I WAS VERY SAD. I CRIED, ALONE. MY PARENTS WERE GOOD PEOPLE BUT THEY DIDN’T HAVE THE INSIGHT TO UNDERSTAND THE IMPORTANCE TO GIVE TO THEIR CHILD SUPPORT AND LOVE. I USED TO FEEL, IN A WAY THAT REJECTION. AT AGE 10 I WAS FEELING VERY SAD AND WONDERING HOW HAPPINESS WAS ABLE TO BE FELT AND IF IT REALLY EXISTED.  THROUGH MY INNER-SELF I FELT ,VERY STRONGLY, THAT HAPPINESS EXISTED BUT I HAD TO FIND IT.  I STARTED TO READ PSYCHOLOGICAL ARTICLES BUT IN MAGAZINES. AT AGE 14 I FOUND OUT ABOUT THE PSYCHONALYSIS, HOW IMPORTANT IT WAS TO FEEL BETTER AND TO KNOW BETTER ABOUT OURSELF. I MENTIONED MY MOTHER THAT I WANTED TO GO FOR A PSYCHOANALYSIS. SHE RESPONDED ME THAT SHE DIDN’T WANT CRAZY PEOPLE IN HER FAMILY. I SAID TO HER SOME DAY I WILL GO FOR THE PSYCHOANALYSIS…. THE REVOLUTION TOOK OVER, IN 1959. MY FATHER WAS ANTI-COMMUNIST LEADER SINCE 1933. HE WROTE TWO BOOKS AGAINST THE COMMUNISM. WE HAD TO LEAVE IN 1960 BECAUSE MY FATHER RECEIVED MESSAGES IN THREATENING HIS LIVE. I STARTED WORKING AT AGE 16. WE EVEN WERE HUNGRY IN UNITED STATES. BUT IT WAS A LESSON FOR ME. IN A WAY,  I WAS A BIT MORE MATURE BUT NOT ENOUGH. I WENT TO LIVE TO NEW YORK WHERE I ACCOMPLISHED SORT OF MY DREAMS. I STARTED THE PSYCHOANALYSIS WITH A CUBAN PYCHOANALYST. HE WAS FROM THE STEKEL SCHOOLING. I MUST SAY,  I GREW INSIGHT BUT STILL I WAS A NEUROTIC. I HAD  SOME CONTROL OF MY THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS BUT NOT ENOUGH. AT THAT TIME I MARRIED A CUBAN YOUNG-MAN. WE WERE MARRIED FOR ALMOST 25 YEARS, AND WE HAD TWO CHILDREN THE BOY WAS BORN IN NYC AND THE GIRL WAS BORN IN VENEZUELA.  MY MARRIAGE HAD FAMILY PROBLEMS. BUT THOSE PROBLEMS WERE INCREASED IN VENEZUELA WHILE WE WERE LIVING IN THIS COUNTRY. I STARTED TO SEARCH FOR THE MYSTICISM LOOKING FOR AN ANSWER.. SINCE THAT TIME AND EVEN SIX MONTHS AGO I HAVE  VISITED DIFFERENT RELIGIONS: CHRISTIANS AND OTHERS, PHYLOSOPHIES,( INCLUDING THE HINDU),  MYSTICAL ORDERS. I EVEN WENT TO PALMERS, MYSTICAL CARDS, ORACLES (SANTERIA). JUST BECAUSE I WAS LOOKING FOR HAPPINESS, RELATIONSHIP AND WEALTH . BUT EVERY TIME I VISITED ONE OF THESE RELIGIONS AND ORDERS, I HAVE ASKED MYSELF: HOW ABOUT MY MIND. ALL THESE GROUPS HAVE BEEN FORMED BY HUMAN BEINGS BUT I WANT TO BE CONNECTED TO THE UNIVERSE. I DIDN”T KNOW HOW TO  CONNECT TO THE UNIVERSE UNTIL I STARTED READING ABOUT THE NEOTHINK. STILL I HAVE NOT CONNECTED BUT I KNOW FROM THE BOTTOM OF  MY HEART  I WILL.  I WILL EVOLVE THE WAY  I HAVE, ALWAYS, WANTED, SINCE AGE 10, I WILL BE ABLE TO ACHIEVE WHATEVER I DESIRE (IN A POSITIVE AND HEAKTHIE WAY).  I WILL CONNECT MY MIND TO THE UNIVERSE. WITHOUT ANY GUILT OR FEARS BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO UNDERSTAND MY FIRST STEP IS TO BE HONEST.  THE OTHER DAY I PARKED MY CAR I OPENED THE TRUCK TO GET MY WORK MATERIAL. i STOOD THERE FOR FEW MINUTES AND I SELF-TALKED, THINKING: I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO EVOLVE BECAUSE STILL  I  AM TIGHT WITH THE ANTI-CIVILIZATION. I KNOW I HAVE TO LIVE IN A WAY WITH THEM BUT I WANT MY FREEDOM. I WANT TO WORK FROM HOME. I DON’T WANT TO BE AROUND LIES, FRAUDE AND CHEATING.  I HAVE TRIED SINCE 1990 TO BE INDEPENDENT. BUT I WAS LIED AND SWINDLED BY PEOPLE FROM THE ANTI-CIVILIZATION. I LOST MY RETIREMENT RESOURCES (70,000) THAT I WAS ABLE TO SAVE  SINCE 1985, SAVING THAT MONEY WITH SACRIFICE AND WITH THE BOTTOM OF MY SHOES WITH ONE OR TWO SMALL HOLES. WHEN THE MONEY WAS GONE I DIDN’T CRY BECAUSE MY DEEP FEELING KNEW THAT I WAS GOING TO BE FREE AND AN ACHIEVEMY DREAMS SOME DAY. I KNOW NOW THAT MY SAVIOR IS THE NEOTHINK. IN WHICH I DO APPRECIATE. I DON’T HAVE WORD TO EXPRESS THESE FEELINGS OF LOVE AND OF APPREIATION .
IN THE WORLD OF THE LICENCES, I AM: MS IN MARRIAGE AND FAMILY THERAPIST, LIC. IN MENTAL HEALTH COUNSELOR, CERTIFIED AS SUBSTANCE ABUSE COUNSELOR, GLAMBLING COUNSELOR,  HYPNOTHERAPIST AND REIKI MASTER. BUT THIS COUNSELOR IS EXTREMELLY FRUSTRATED BECAUSE I CANNOT GIVE THE SERVICE AS I WOULD LIKE DUE TO THE SYSTEM DOES NOT WANT TO SOLVE ANY MENTAL OR BEHAVIOR CONDITION.

MR. HAMILTON, ONCE AGAIN AND FOREVER, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE OPPORTUNITY THAT I HAVE ALWAYS DREAMT.

TANYA P