I had read the last 3…

Mark

I had read the last 3 manuals with a vengeance and I couldn’t put them down. I put the rest of my life on hold, I was so excited and so filled with a new sense of hope….hope that had been dead for many years. I couldn’t wait for the meetings….the wait was so long in coming that I drifted away from NT..and I am ashamed to admit, I was so tied up in my Commodities Trading that I missed the second meeting and the next one, then I didn’t hear from you all any more. Have I blown my membership? Please send me passwords and links so I can attend the second meeting and all the other ones I was supposed to have done by now. I had my first meeting around June or July this year……I feel like I have let you all down and you can’t imagine how much I need and hope for a world like NT says is going to happen. Tell me what to do to restart the process….and please don’t tell me to go away because I will prove my value to you, I am valuable to anything when I believe in it and I do believe with my entire being the NT is real and we could have a world like that to live in. I have no use for the world the way it is….empty..void of anything honest or meaningful….boring and pointless…I sometimes wonder how I can possibly continue to live here on this planet if it stays the same dishonest, cruel and pointless existence. I have found life to be of little value and finding a reason to keep waking up was getting harder and harder. Then NT comes along and I felt like someone woke up the part of my brain that registered happiness, hope and purpose……I want to do what ever it takes to make that feeling manifest in reality…..I need NT and I will be a valuable and productive member giving way more than I take and I eagerly await the return of the excitement that was building inside of me…I had become dead inside, if not for the love I have for my Son, there would have been no reason to continue this journey. I hated feeling that way but I couldn’t escape it. So back to the real issue, have I blown my chance to become a part of something important? Let me prove myself and you will not regret your decision

Sincerely,

Lana S.