stagnation

hi my name is jonete aguiar jr. i first received a letter from neothink society about 2 years ago,i was awestruck with the way the letters were written, magical and full of wander would poorly describe how it made me feel. i purchased the three heirlooms. at first i read them with gusto and enthusiasm specially missanabelle”s story, but i was and still am very rooted in mysticism and ruled by the bicameral mentality i was very challenged with the idea that there is no god besides my self, even writing this now and allowing the consideration of that theory being be true makes me feel guilty!!! so in an act of impulsiveness i set the heirlooms on fire which i now regret, because i dont get the feelings i got from the letters of neothink in religion and i realize also that guilt could and would be a tool used by others to control and manipulate my thoughts and actions, and i dont think i”ve had easely felt before the way i felt when i first read the neothink letters and writings, so here i am once again, i would like to start all over again if i can… thank you much for everything!!!
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