The Douglas Story

My name is Cleveland Douglas Holmes Jr.

I am sure I can write a book of my life but I will try not to torment every one, although I would like to share more with everyone in the future.
As a child I was a proud and powerful communicator amongst my peers. I felt inner power all the time while helping others. I did not feel special, I just had great joy helping others. My father is a baptist pastor and I was obviously raised in a christian home. I studied the bible ceaselessly in my attempt to find the truth and be closer to God. The truth is, the younger I was the closer to God I was. The older I became the more distant God became. Before I go further I would like to express that I am in no wise trying to create religious stress to anyone. I am merely sharing my experience and hoping that anyone having a hard time with religious issues can glean something from my experience. As a child and young man everything seemed to work out for me. It seemed I was always in the right place at the right time. Like I was being guided. I always had a feeling that I had everything I needed to be successful. Things began to change when I became nineteen years old. I met my wife then. She was just as young but had two children that I feel in love with. We were deeply in love and I was an up and coming mechanical designer. I was paid well and also went to college in the evenings. Needless to say my family felt my new soulmate was not good enough for me. It broke my heart to see my christian family treat the love of my life so hostilely.

At twenty years of age, I was put on blast by a neocheating minister in front of the entire congregation about becoming a minister. I had expressed to this person that I had considered a friend, in private my desire to do some kind of teaching. He always insisted that I was being called to the ministry and I always resisted that claim. I must confess that I did have an inner calling, but I had to be right about what I was teaching people. I had to be completely honest. There were many things in the bible that conflicted with my nature. My wife whom I consider a genius and I had hair raising conversations concerning religion. She was always supportive of my efforts and she was adept in the home. I supported her in her endeavors and we were extremely happy in spite of all the opposition presented to us. I was an amazing value creator at the time. I created value for the areospace and defence industries. I feel I created value in my community by teaching people to believe in themselves and stop waiting for some miracle. The miracle came when you see yourself achieving your goals through effort in your endeavors. My ministry was becoming very popular with various congregations but very unpopular with nearly every church leader. I remember being invited to speak by members of different churches, only to be publicly railed afterwards by the pastor. Accused of teaching some strange doctrine. I spoke to my father/pastor about these disturbing matters and he told to preach Jesus… I suppose I misunderstood him because things became worse. It seems to me that Jesus constantly taught to turn from bicameral minds and become integrated thinkers. Thanks to NeoTech and NeoThink I now have the terminology to back up what I always felt. And we all know what integrated thinking got him way back then.

I can go on and on. I really would like to share the whole story one day. Hopefully I will. Needless to say, I allowed learned religious beliefs to strip me into the bicameral thinking which eventually destroyed my career, my relationship with my wife as well as my drive for life. I could not understand what happened to such a promising life. All I had was my yesterdays until NeoTech found me. Thanks Mark, for choosing to be my mentor and I hope I can become an asset to the society as fast as possible.

Again, thanks Mark Hamilton I hope to see you soon.

I would like you all to know my wife and I never divorced. And as I evolve into a Neothinker, her interest in me in growing daily. We are spending New Years day together. Thanks NeoTech