Truly who is Mark Hamilton… I found out….

Greetings,
Trust, love, and protection is vital in life and shattered trust is created from violations, rather it be abuse in any form. I have faced with broken and shattered trust in my life, So my question who went into my mind and why?
I personally do not like when violations occur to human beings because all we do is what we learn and are trained to do, which is abuse back. Then, we are conflicted for life in pain of which was created to us and how ended up, hurting people along the journey.
Why now are these mentors coming in to protect us, when time has passed and conflict has happened. I do not understand….
Truly who is Mark Hamilton… I found out…. its someone else…

I really just want the truth… I am seeker for truth but since, I have been abused for so long, I have come to believe the violations are real, then the real truth in front of me. and these are my escape modes …. How do I believe and flip this back into truth..?
Thanks for reading and feeling my pain and helping during this journey… No matter who you are… You are a real person and I just do not want to be violated or pulled into something that will hurt me…
Dana